sjenta's numerology of my name

Numerology :

Jayme Melrose.

What does the name Jayme represents?

Well Jayme is inclined to assume responsibilities for others. Have agreat urge to serve and uplift humanity.

VERY ideakistic and generous. Inclined to give more then to receive.

Creative, artistic, musical nature, instead OF THE BUSINESS NATURE. Worry too much over the problems of others and fell very deeply about the loss of others.

Your name is a very fine and idealistic combination.. PERHAPS A BIY TOO SCATTERING. (Irritates Kili I think)BUT good qualities are many.

Weakness is WORRY. in the nervous system. That is YOU. in the name Jayme.

Now the name Melrose:

Successful, reserved ( the opposite what you are now for the scattering takes over), good in philosophy, art, music and drama. Fond of the home, responsibility. A few close friends. Biggest problem is WORRY too much.

Now the combination of Jayme Meltose is the following:

Making good teachers. You have when it comes to the end result and you would realise that then you are able to be a responsible person and be very constructive. You have to give yourself a deeper depth of mind re Philosophy, art and music for you would be a very good teacher or nurse for you will have the patience and the liking for people.

You know Jayme through what you will say : I did not have an easy upbringing and that effects sometimes your later life style, but I never blamed parents ( they went broke and had a hard life) but I always pulled out myself out of the muddy places where I was in and that is important.

Just as you mentioned, may be some Friesland blood is in you and you will survive.BE A SURVIVORm do not drown. Do not think that leaving your sweet Kili behind and think that your life will be better alone. NO SIR> Stand up for yourself and say to yourself I will make it with KILI.

Talk it over and show that your love towards him is unconditional. See his good qualifications and then you have reached already the ceiling from your lifestyle for you are together but see that you both see from each other the good qualificications you both have. Please do not starting to critize each other or running each other down. That is not a PLUS and does not help you or Kili.

Help ech other and look for what you respect in another person.

It sounds all very serious buy it is the truth.

I believe you are in your birthpath a NUMBER three and that means :

YOU ARE THE ENTERTAINER.

These people needs encouragement from others, They are witty and spontaneous.

They should be happy and cheerful, public speaking, they could write and lecture or teach.

THEY SOMETIMES TALK TOO MUCH ( I do not think KILI likes that)

Business and private life becomes too disciplined for their freedom-loving nature. They lack punctuality and are usually late.

THEY START THINGS AND DO NOT finish it. ( your marriage)

They have vitality and energy and they take LIFE AS IT COMES.

THEY DO NOT TAKE LIFE as it comes.

They have a love for people. and they are able to make others happy.

THEY SPENT TOO MUCH MONEY on things they do not need.

THEY CAN BE VERY SCATTERING AND NEGATIVE IN REGARDS TO UNDERTAKINGS and VERY POSITIVE IN OPINION, they can be canded and sarcatic.

Son James Bruce is a number three in birthpath and now at his age he has reached very far. He is getting wiser and do not tell him, but his mother told him many times the numbers.

He is a very good person. AND SO ARE YOU.Jayme the rewason you have difficulties at the moment Is:

Every person goes through cycles in your lifetime and when you were marries that was a good cycle year. That was a six cycle year but now the following three years are the seven, eight and 9 cycle years.

If you have lived the way you should have lived during the first 6 years then you are reaping the results of the efforts you have made during these 6 years. But starting ib a six year with marriage that was Ok but not understanding your purpose of life and make it fullfilling and only see the negative side at the moment you cannot accomplish without a helping hand the three following years.

I am going to help you and will try to make you understand the situation you are in on the moment.

I will tell you this whenever you are thinking that the situation from you now is no good then I will tell you whatever you are intending to do or will do will be worse.

You have to realise what is going on and that is this.

You at the moment are unaware WHAT YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING TO MAKE THINGS HAPPIER. Start with knowing yourself.

LOGOTHERAPY. THINK I AM A SURVIVOR.

Most people jump out of marriage and they are the loosers for they are thinking the grass on the other side is greener then what I see at the moment. They are so wrong.

Anyway I woke up thinking about you and I do not like to see you drowning.

Sometimes I smile about your funny way of writing. That is the entertainer and comes over to me as a growing up period and not knowing how to present yourself a kind of scattering but will disappear when you KNOW yourself.

Meantime lots of love, feeling like an old wise aunt now.

*aunt) Sjenta

letters from Sjenta

My dear Jamie,

To start with going back in the past is very hard. In the first place my thoughts have to be replaced many years back and I will try to the best of my knowledge to to do that.

Will first start with a little bit of family background from myself.and then I will automatically tune in to the next episode.

My mother and brothers and sisters ( 3 males and 3 females) were all born in Friesland and as I understand on a place called Weinbritseradeel. The father went door to door selling clothes and the grandmother stayed at home with the kids. However the grandpa liked a drink and one day the strong Friesland grandmother took the ( more grown up now) to Amsterdam and left the grandpa behind and you know what this strong human started ?(with these 6 kids and another (young man what she had taken along too )a

TEA AND COFFEE shop , selling tea and coffee. When these kids were very young, after at that time school age she had them all placed for future purpose in the professions she thought were their future. The boys all of them as pupils by a photograph store and the two girls up for nursing and my mother as pupil modiste and all of them in Amsterdam. They all climbed the ladder and my mother married the young man, which grandma took along too. The 3 uncles became all wellknown in the photography field.

We go on with continuation of the family. The Friesland inheritance healthwise, they all were very strong, all got a purpose in life and all were very well adjusted.

I think that is why I AM SO STRONG. Friesland blood. And they all were very happy people. My aunts were tante Anna and tante Jo and the uncles were Uncle Sicco, uncle Pier, and uncle Wiebe. and the man my mother married was Jan de Haas.Will have a cup of tea and will start next episode,. Love, Sjenta

Dear Jamie,

Will continue and will do my best to go back all the years that I will remember and was told to me by aunts and uncles.

Jand Haas got married with my mother and opened up a photograph and bookstore in Hillegom, Holland. It was very hard for them financially and also especially for my mother who was her time ahead with MODE ( she was modiste, making the most beautiful hats) and she was beautiful AND LOVED RYTHMIC DANCES, so you understand to settle in a country place at that time as Hillegom what was so different from the town Amsterdam was a terrible adjustment for her and she was a lady and always different hats, and then on top of that the financial difficult time these people had ( look now at your own life with a study loan etc) and then tante Eta was born. Then 5 years later your grandfather Jan was born and then 5 years later I was born. As far as I know we had a normal family life and I will skip many years now for I was too young to visualize the situation from baby till about Highschool.

At the age at 14 and I had 3 years MULO behind I remeber one time that there were accountants coming to our home and it was told that my parents were in receivership. No money left, nothing, INFLATION in the country. Lost everything.

What next?

They became Youth Hostel parents with no salary and they took me along.

Tante Eta was a nurse in Amsterdam.Your grandfather Jan was working in Lisse, Holland at a Holland bulb Firm.

So at the age 14 I lived with my parents in the KAAG and did not continue shool for there was no money but had my Mulo school (3 years behind).

Helped my mother in the Youth Hostel and

I was happy in the Kaag, went to the farmers and helped them in the field and took people sailing. Good time to remember.

Then not having enough education I ended up at the RIJKSTUINBOUWSCHOOL in Lisse (scholarship for 2 years) and I loved it. All boys (100) and I got my DIPLOMA from this College, what helped me a lot in later life.

I remember I had two skirts and 2 sweaters and never any money. But I was happy.

Jan your grandfather I was never so close to him for the age difference between Eta en Jan was too big and Eta en Jan were palls.

Then I will skip again some years till the year 1939.

My sister Eta made her way in the nursing field and worked for a Dr, Zubli in Amsterdam and Jan my brother was travelling I believe in France for the GHlland Bulb firm and I was in Sweden trying to sell Holland Bulbs for a Dutch Holland Bulb firm JOHANNUS van Till. Very exciting this was. On the Boat to Sweden there were already Jewish people who tried to escape Germany at that time. Being in Sweden and Loved it there, then suddenly I had a call ( where I stayed) that I had to appear at the Consul's office for foreigners being in Sweden had to leave the country immediately for GSweden was afraid that Germany would invate Sweden. Jamie I cried for I loved to be in Sweden and coming back to Holland the years following were terrible.

Have to stop for itwhat I am now repeting to tell will be emotional.

So long. Sjenta

Jamie,

I will try to repeat my search for the meaning of life. Made in 2006 a presentation about it.

Instead of calling it the meaning of life I will call it the search for the meaning of life.

To start that we human beings are always asking ourselves. What is the purpose why we are here and the meaning of this all. Let us start with the idea that we human beings are able to live and even to die for the sake of ideals and values.

It is all easily said but the will to accomplish a meaningful life is not easy for everybody and is depending on the person him or herself. Therefore it is important in our lives to know what we are and Dr. Viktor Frankl discovered that Logotherapy (selftharapy) is the most important Therapy to begin to know yourself and how to be able to establish your own future. I do not want to go into the subject psychotherapy but rather LOGOTHERAPY. For logotherapy regards its assignment as that of assisting the person to find meaning of life, in as much as logotherapy makes you aware of the hidden LOGOS of your existence. It is an analytical

INSTINCTUAL facts within the individual's unconscious but also cares for EXISTENTIAL

realities such as the potential meaning of his or excistence to be fulfilled as well as his or her will to meaning. Man's search for meaning may arouse FRUSTRATION.

To reach your purpose or goal in life under difficult circumstances as the knowledge that there is a meaning in one's life. The words of Nietske;

He who has a why to live for, can bear almost any how. It is a shame that so many people nowadays have no orientation of the meaning of life. The feeling of the total and ultimate meaninglessness of their lives. They lack the awareness of a meaning worth living for.

I am 87 now Jamie and this is the way I am thinking now but believe me when I was younger I made many many mistakes and I think every day is another day we learn more. Success with your studies and KILI too.

Much love, Sjenta

My dear Jamie,

I think by now you are fed up with all my philosophy etc.

Well we all humans are going through cycles in life and probably it is now my time to study a little bit and take life serious.

If you want me then I will try to start opening up the thoughts from earlier time re: your mam and Ilse the grandmother.

My former e-mails were till the year 1939. Then the war period 1940-1945 started and I will skip that for it will be very emotional for me to think about it. Will copy my presentations I gave to the Jewish people and young people in Hawaii.

When grandmother Ilse got married with my brother then already very soon Wiebe arrived and it was at that time that Ilse I believe was having the baby that letters came from Germany that many of her familymembers were dead in Auswitz or somewhere else, including her father, mother and brother. Sit still one moment and try to realize THAT situation. Luckily Jan ( husband and Erna and Hansje tried to assist her in the griefing but in a case like this there is a lot of pain and it always depends on the person him or herself or you are a survivor mentally. Then When Ilse came in our life ( I mean here my mother and father and sister and myself) then we all were still all mixed up from the war ourselves and now I see it all very clear what happened to this girl woman, she needed help and lots of LOVE and she ( later told me) she had expected that we all would love her like my mother did all her own children. Now I realize that was not the case, not that we did not accept her but now I had children of my own and they married and introduced me to new persons in our lives then there was not that feeling from right away from the love the other person wanted. And I think that is quite normal but for the person who comes into a new family circle that is hard to accept. I know now what it means but not at that time. Nevertheless I felt content with my brother's choice and we got along OK. The later years with my brother and Ilse were vere trying, and especially with three children. And believe it Jamie a person coming out of a concentration camp and have experienced horrible situations during the war and Ilse as described as above, than it was no wonder that difficulties arrived. Now here we come to the point what I always think why that word crazy appeared.

When Jan ( my brother) was trying hard to make a living and Ilse was many many times very depressed and the children needed love and attention then there was a problem. The youngest of the three children Johnnie was ( what I saw and think) the only child what was observing his mother's pain and love for the people who died and I must say I respect him all my life for assisting his mother in these feelings. I call it respect. Wiebe turned a lot in these times to me and I gave him love and attention and Selma I always saw her escaping this all what I mentioned and that is why she at a teenagers periode was looking for attention and love in her friend John. In later life you have noticed how she had to defend herself with diffrent husband and friend Paul. I am able to understand her trying to find every time a new lifestyle and I respect her a lot for she made it this far and it was a long journey for her and also again just the same as her mother and me and other people we always think that the love from other people will help us to have a happy life. This is not always the case what I have been sending you about the LOGOTHERAPY is the answer. We humans have to find out for ourselves or we are able to handle situations as above or we are in depression, suicide or keep moving and try to find new men or new women in our life thinking that the other person is able to help you to make you happier. Wrong thought.

Only by knowing yourself and thinking it out yourself then there is a possibility that you are able to handle the situation well and it takes time to love yourself and say I am happy.

It took me many years and after Jim's father died I was looking for a person ( in this case ) a man who I thought would help me to survive. MADE mistake and made life more miserable for a while. Jim was 14 and instead of thinking more about myself and Jim I took the wrong road.IThe reason that Jim is so independant I think it came forward out of this situation. Asked myself or I did wrong or something good came out of this all as a lesson. All people make mistakes but by me bringing it forward then may be it helps you and Kili.

Anywat I tried to explain the situation from the grandmother a little and I know for sure that she was not crazy what my sister was trying to say and tried to influence my brother for treatment etc. It was me who went to Ilse's doctor and told him what my sister wanted to do and that I as a sister in law was sure that Ilse was sad, depressed from all the above facts what happened to the family members, but not crazy. And in later life she did remarkable well, Planetarium where she worked, helped Johnnie and his wife with the children, Reading with the hands for blind people etc.

Think it over and try to relize what this woman went through. Johnnie always says that Wiebe is still in denial not seeing the above. I respect all three children my brother had and may be I should have been a better aunt.

About Selma your mother?

I think she us doing really well and like Ilse she did not have much of a choice to be what she presented at the most difficult time in that young life to be different for familylife is so important. The first 7 years a child neeed a father and mother and the following 7 years the child is looking what the father and mother are doing and then after 14 years old then they are on their own, especially at this time and age.

When they are home longer then 14 then they are missing the hard times what you have to go through and become I would say spoiled by still be helped by parents and also more narrowminded. I was also 14 years old when I brought home some money from being a kennelmaid and stripping dogs and that way when there was an inflation in Europe we had bread on the table. Then my mother send me to tante Anna to assist her in the night time to get up for the bathroom reasons and cleaning her little house and then to the Kaag helping in the Youth Hostel.

Lifew was not easy.

Nowadays young people are depressed and I think we better sit down and discuss how to solve problems for younger people. Also in your case BE strong, help each other, and Jamie go to the MLA and present your case and fight for the fact that the study loans disappear for that worry drives you crazy, get a job forget about study. Jim has no University but he showed he has guts and made it. Very hard years but he did it. And that all when his mother was depressed also after his father's death and he had to struggle alone for his future.

Enough is enough now and I have never been so open to a young person as you are but I hope it helps you to come to positive thoughts with Kili for the FUTURE. Even when you both have to struggle for a good future .That is not so bad.

Much love both Sjenta xxoo